The Winter Drag

So, it's been a while - and it's been many hours in bed for this hibernating faerie.

This year, the winter time has hit me harder than ever...causing boosts of energy late in the night and a seriously hard time getting out of bed until around 10:30 am, when the sun itself was finally starting to rise.

I've had a hard journey since the Solstice...we had a beautiful exhibition in Berlin to bring light back into the world that was very low on attendance and left me feeling a bit empty and sad - grateful for the time I spent with close friends and family, but sad for the artists who prepared beautiful and amazing things and were left with just a small group to share it with.

Furthermore, Facebook's ultra-capitalist algorithms caused the event boost to be a 30euro drain on my resources.

Disclaimer: [I cannot prove that Facebook has an algorithm to encourage clients to pay more each time they boost something by diminishing the effectiveness of the boost based on a similar pay rate, but I have spoken to enough people who have had a similar experience to believe that it is true. What happened to me is that I boosted the 7x7 exhibition for 30euros and we had over 200 responses, including shares and likes and people who came to the event. I did the same exact thing this time for Yule, and we had maybe 10 responses and no one who showed up. The events were essentially the same, with many similar artists, the only major difference that definitely played a part being the time of year (the darkest weekend of the year in a city where most of the international inhabitants left for the holidays). That being said, I firmly believe that Facebook took that money and did basically nothing with it...asking me every day to add money to the campaign to increase my results. I never did and the result was an empty exhibition hall, which made me sad - though grateful for the intimate time I got to spend with the artists who came and our close friends.]

It could also be the time of year. It continued to be dark until late in the morning and early in the night and I just couldn't find the time or energy to do much more than sleep and read. That being said, I did a lot of reading and sleeping and today I woke up at 8 and hit the gym feeling refreshed.

SO in the end, I guess it's a good time to take some lessons from nature, who herself cuts out the unnecessary costs (like taking care of leaves or sprouting new sprouts during the winter time) and goes to sleep - conserving energy to survive the long, cold nights and to wake up new and refreshed on the brink of spring...